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What to say after so long a silence? Much has happened this last semester that has not been told, some of it will probably remain so. Much has taken place and I have changed greatly. I have tasted the bitterness of goodbyes, longing for a heaven where I never have to say 'goodbye' again. I have made deep and lasting friendships in my four years at Hillsdale that were extremely difficult to leave. I dreaded leaving and had no idea how to face departing. I wanted so desperately to hold on to every moment but they kept slipping by until every last one was gone, my friends went home, and I was left lingering in Michigan as I wondered at all that God might be purposing for me. I am part of a body there that I will no longer be able to closely fellowhip with. So many families took me in and were kind to me at my church there, and I love my pastors there so very much.

That God is purposing much for me I know, because the work that He has been accomplishing in me He has been working on for some time now, and has prepared me for the changes that are beginning to bear fruit.

I have been so busy at school that, perhaps ironically, I have had no time to think. And I must think. I must take time to let the dust settle and wait patiently upon the Lord for guidance. He works on behalf of those who wait for Him (Isaiah 64:4), and so I will wait. I need time to think, and time to write. To read, to pray, to store up scriptures in my heart so that the Holy Spirit may prompt me with them and give me strength through them. I need time to seek His guidance for the future, and so though I am home, I will remain aloof for these first six months, living with and serving my family. This may be a selfish decision, I will not be very social during this time, but I must take time to orient my life properly.

I will be doing a good deal of thinking and I hope to post weekly on this blog. Thank you to all who read it. I am sorry that I have left you all for so long. I am back now.